Dedicated to Lakshmi, the Goddess of Abundance

I’m a stock trader newbie and you can tell by my perpetual fear. Then again I’ve heard that stock traders are always scared and run by their emotions. Maybe, in that I have a real proclivity for stressful living—not necessarily by my own choice—maybe this new career is the one that I never really consciously knew I needed.

I’ve been reading and reading and reading and I’m getting a handle on some of it except for the money making part. I haven’t lost money yet but I haven’t earned it yet either, even though these four months should potentially have earned me something but I know I’m learning a trade that I really want to know at this age.

I’ve been reading about how other stock traders do it but they also have a lot more money than me. I’d like to be able to earn 20% on my investments and I think I now know how to do it but that I’m chicken shit.

For example, today my stocks went up $400-plus dollars and if I just sold them all now and then start over doing the same thing tomorrow, even if I make $400 a week, that’s good enough for me and it will be a 50% return on my money in one year. That’s not too bad in my book. However, I will probably sit here unsure for a little longer.

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Well, I just sold two and made $119 for the day. I don’t know exactly what I’m doing but I know I want to keep my money and I want to earn more. I don’t want to lose and I know the market is going down.

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Ok, so it is a few hours later now and I went for just under half of it and made $175. Hey! I know that’s not a ton but damn, I’m in this to make some money, not just for my health and in the past four months I’ve seen my profits go up and then wait for some illusory reason for them to diminish again. I just want to make some money here and for today $175 is a good start in my book.

I know tomorrow I will be compelled to read more about new stocks because I love to spend my days reading. I will check out company’s revenues and earnings, which is the type of things I’ve been reading about for four months. I haven’t lost a dime yet and I just took my first real earnings and without explanation right now, I’m going to dedicate this post to Lakshmi, the goddess of abundance.