ACK! What a funk I've been in!

But today I started looking for online information about menopause and perimenopause and I feel hopeful.

I thought I could slay this dragon alone, but I was mistaken because this dragon is beating the shit out of me.

I am happy though to say I am not beating the shit out of family and friends.

I just beat myself up and I am damn good at it.

I have hit an all-time low in poor self-image [that's me being kind to myself].

Pretty much, most of my days are spent amazed at the colossal failure I am...when I'm not doubled over in pain from adolescant-style menstrual cramps or spending days no further than 20 feet from my home bathroom.

So, it felt helpful finding a forum on webmd.com, even though it's not very active. I am going to read all the past posts and get what I can from it and I am going to have to accept that I may just have to change the name of this blog to aperimenopauseblog.

(No, I won't do that but it's a thought.)

Anyway, this is the first time I have dared trying to write out my thoughts (I didn't want to terrify any visitors that may drop in).

Now I am going to go back to the forum and see what they've got.

And btw, if anyone out there knows of other forums for perimenopausal or menopausal women, I would absolutely love the information.

Until next time.